stress and Bloody noses

So I guess I am kinda stressed out. My nose is bleeding like everyday. and I think I am gonna quit my job at GWAYO. Kinda sad but I dunno what else to do. And I am off my asthma med simply because I am not sure how I am gonna pay for them. Ya know? so anyway. Thus is life

Stupid Prayers vs. Selfish Prayers

Is there such thing as a stupid prayer? In every class it seems like we pray "Jesus please come bless our class..." or whatever and it just seems monotonous. I don't believe it's stupid to ask for God's blessing but It seems like we are praying for something that God is already doing...

One day in Impact Youth Choir (Cedar Park) Jeremy lead us in prayer and we repeated the worlds "God, Bless me!" after him. "How many people think that's a selfish prayer?" he asked. After some responses he said "Good! 'Cause it is!"
I had never thought about asking God to bless me in such a way before. why not? Because it's selfish? Or because praying this would only make me feel as if I didn't believe God was blessing me to begin with? and if this is the case then does it make this prayer stupid?

Interestingly enough, I have been thinking about whether prayer actually makes a difference. If prayer doesn't make a difference why do it? why fellowship with God if it doesn't affect our lives? The fact is that God DOES listen to our petitions. Prayer makes a huge difference. James 4:2 says "...you do not have, because you do not ask God." Isn't that interesting. There are so many people that complain about God not providing or blessing them but they haven't asked God to do so. God answers our prayers. Here's a thought: If we do not pray for our nation's salvation, are we at fault?

When we pray God hears us.... so yea

LIFE SCHEDULE

8:30 - 9:45 ~ Administration and Organization
9:55 - 10:45 ~ Hermeneutics
10:55 - 11:45 ~ Chapel (required)
11:55 -12:20 ~ Lunch
12:30 - 1:45 ~ Pastoral Counseling
1:55 -3:10 ~ Theology
3:15 - 7:15 ~ GWAYO (work)
7:15 - 9:00ish ~ Church Custodial work
9:00 - whenever I Fall Asleep ~ Homework, Dinner (maybe), shower? Prayer? Life?

The "Streak-Free" Cleaner

So I clean the church windows with this Walmart "streak-free" cleaner but I had to wash the windows like 8 times because the cleaner isn't really streak free.

Of course I had to parallel this with our lives as Christians. So many times we choose to use our "streak free" cleaner and think we are clean yet we refuse to recognize Jesus to our every day lives. Not say that you have to recognize Jesus every day to be 'clean' but I am so aware of those Christians who live as if they are streak free but they are not. They are using the Walmart cleaner.

We need to use Windex and easily clean all our spots (Of course this is Jesus in my metaphor). All we have to do is seek Jesus and he washes us like Windex washes windows. ;)

God is BIGGER

God is SOOOO good. That's all I can say.

I Hate Movies

Actually I like a lot of movies. Here is what I don't like about movies... THEY ARE CONSUMING MY SCHOOL! People watch these movies and they don't stop at one (a day) they keep watching. AND THEN you have to hear them complain about how much homework they have to do. First of all, watching movies is not a good obsession to have and is not only mentally unhealthy but physically unhealthy as well. I am not a fan of this movie addiction. I do not feel that movies are an appropriate or valid form of fellowship.. at least not in the amount that they are being watched right now. A movie now and again is cool with me... but this obsession is really getting to me. I have to voice out whats on my mind right now.
I am not saying this because I have no one to hang out with right now ( I have tons of homework to do) but I am saying it because it needs to be said. I can do nothing about this over excessive movie watching but boycott them (which really doesn't do anything). I am sickened by it is all.. FLEH

Miss

I miss the family.. Yep. Maybe it's just because I am tired

oh how I love

SOO. Kids Church is like so awesome! I love kids and even though I don't really do very much right now and I am not "SO" involved... I just like being with them. I love seeing kids praise God. I think we had a total of 35 kids this week so thats pretty good.

It's Been a While

It's been a while since i posted anything so I just I would post somthing genaric to say "I'm STILL ALIVE". I know that no body responds but maybe, just maybe there is someone out there who is reading this.